When our basic and deepest needs are not met as children we grow a type of anti body to them later on in life. Somehow as we grow up we develop a subconscious habit that leads us to work hard to avoid situations that are likely to benefit us in these arid areas within ourselves. In time this approach leads us to become accustomed to function from a disabled heart that instead of being the source of our life it becomes a yoke around our necks as it desperately bleeds its life away within us.
I lived like this for many years and even recently God has been opening my eyes to be able to see these areas of emptiness surrounded by pools of sadness. As I have remained present and listened to what the pain was telling me my life has suddenly began to experience a new flavor that is somewhere between wild cherry and chocolate. Nothing has changed outside as much as something has been unlocked within me. I feel there is more space suddenly and with this space has come a deeper and greater silence that despite the negative circumstances I currently travel through I remain still, expectant, and quiet within.
Consider today asking God to show you if there were some needs that were not met in your childhood that might have caused parts of you to remain as an imprisoned child that is just not able to grow up.
Remember just because you think something is true about you or the way you think life is supposed to be it doesn’t mean that it is so.
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